Holly passed away

Holly is in the middle, eating strawberries.

Today was Holly's birthday, marking four years since we adopted her. It is also the day that we said goodbye.

Two weeks ago, I noticed that Holly's eye looked cloudy. We rushed her to the vet and were told that she had an eye infection. We immediately started her on antibiotics and pain meds and brought her home.

A few days later, I left to Texas for a week for my little brother's High School graduation. Huz stayed and took care of Holly and the other buns. He gave her meds and cuddled her and monitored her.

When I got back last week, we noticed that she wasn't eating and her eye wasn't improving. We took her back to the vet, who recommended that we schedule her for surgery and have the eye removed. We were worried she would lose more weight and get weaker if we didn't. We were also concerned about the pain she was experiencing. We would love our Bun whether she had one eye or a million, and just wanted her to be as comfortable and healthy as possible.

We took her in for surgery this morning. Huz got a call from the vet saying that Holly had been a trooper through surgery, and had done great, but just wouldn't wake up from the anesthesia. They tried to warm her up and bring her heart rate back up, but it kept dropping until it stopped completely. She died peacefully in her sleep. We got to see her and pet her and tell her we love her one last time. She will be buried on a farm in Napa, surrounded by grapes (which were her favorite treat).

I am heartbroken. I just can't believe that just four years ago on a sunny summer day we brought home our sweet, nervous bunny, and today, on a cold and rainy day, she left us. I know we gave her a good life and that she always felt loved and taken care of. We did the best we could for her, and I treasure every day I got to spend with my sweet Holly Heart. It just sucks and I really really really wish she was still alive.

Huz is really sad too, I know, but he tries to be strong for me. I think Hef and Jude know something is wrong because it seems like they keep looking for Holly. They check her favorite hiding spot and come to the front of the hutch as if to ask us, "When is she coming home?". I'm so sorry guys. This morning she was here, and now she's not. It's going to take time for all of us to get used to it. I love you and I am so sorry.

I'm not looking forward to tomorrow morning when I'll wake up and most likely forget, and have to remember all over again that I won't see her anymore. I'll have to remember that I have two bunnies now, not three. And when we pull our Christmas stuff out in December and I see her stocking- yeah, that's gunna suck too.

But I'll face that eventually. Today I'll think fondly of my Holly, and wish her a Happy Birthday and Goodnight.

Thank you Lord for blessing my life with Holly, and for allowing me to be her Mama. She was a joy to have, and I'm better because I love her. I don't understand why she's not with me anymore. I don't understand it, and I don't like it, but I accept it. I know her life had a purpose. She was a precious gift wrapped in fur, and I am thankful that she was mine.

Walk for Life & Charged Up for Life 5K

Okay, I am so excited about this! I am working on #15 of my "Thirty Before 30" list! ::directs attention to right-hand side of the screen:: I want to participate in a race/walk/ or run for a cause I believe in.

I am going to run the Charged Up for Life 5K. I'm getting together a team and sponsors so I can raise money for an amazing organization I'm involved with called RealOptions. Huz and I donate money and baby items there regularly, and I volunteer there every week. It's a fabulous, welcoming place that provides important services including peer counseling, post-abortion counseling, information on parenting, abortion and adoption, pregnancy tests, ultrasounds, OB care, baby and maternity clothes, diapers, blankets, cribs, formula, strollers, child birth classes, referrals for other important community programs, and so much more. And all of the services are free of charge to clients! I love being a part of this awesome ministry.

The amazing part is, RealOptions runs entirely on donations, and is still able to provide free services! Because I absolutely love my volunteer work, and love the men, women, and children we serve, I want to make sure to help raise as much money as I can to make sure that those in our community are getting the support they need. I have seen so many individuals and families be totally blessed by this ministry, and I have been so blessed to serve them, especially alongside the wonderful people I work with. I know a real need is being met here, and I love being a part of it.

Now, I am no athlete. I do need to exrercise, and I always think I will, but I get lazy and don't do it. It's awful. But now, I feel like I have something bigger than myself (no pun intended lol) to motivate me. I'll be picturing my client's faces when they light up after seeing their baby for the first time through an ultrasound. I'll be thinking about those hugs I get from girls who are able to gain some comfort and peace knowing that we're here to help them. And I'll remember that in some of my clients' young faces I see my own mother, who got pregnant with me at 17 years old and, even when it all seemed hopeless, she made a choice for life. I am always thankful for that.

To me, it's not about religion, or politics, or "saving babies", or punishing women, or judging and condemning, or taking away a choice, or anything like that. I want to help educate young men and women about the life that's growing, and help them to fully understand all their options. And, no matter what their decision is, I want them to know that I support them and love them and want to help them however I can. It's important to me that they know they are loved and valued, and that they are not alone.

If you feel you can, please help us with this Walk. We can use participants, sponsors, volunteers, cheerleaders, prayers... if you are willing, I bet we can find something for you to do! If you aren't local, you can sign up and get sponsors and walk around your neighborhood to participate. Or you can donate to my team and keep us in your thoughts or prayers. With un-athletic me in charge, we're going to need it lol! If you're interested, email me at mrs.moosie08@gmail.com and let me know.

Thanks so much, and God Bless!

Before I formed you in the womb I knew you. Before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations. Jeremiah 1:5

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:13-14

We love, because He first loved us. 1 John 4:19


His for Life,